Once upon a time.

So... I once upon a time did this before, created a blog, but the creation of it was ill-timed seeing that I was MC-hammered, and might've, just might've been tripping.
Anywoo, when I woke up the next morning and realised I was at my home in my own bed, I stumbled to the computer to discover - to my horror - that I had created a blog.

Not even I could really understand it, if the peeps from Oxford had read it they could have started a new dictionary. So I did the sensible thing and deleted it.

But now, times they are a changing. I've started to take things into perspective just a little, and took a step back, relaxed from the partying for a week with the flu and it gave me ample amount of time to reflect realise that my life right now is pretty darn... SHIT!

To my defense, I'm young. On the other hand I'm qualified, unemployed, insecure, have an irrational fear of failure, in and out of relationships and at the moment boyfriend-less, and the bank account isn't what it was last week.
So I really mean it when I say I think a change is coming, I can feel it in the air, the way the trees sway in the wind (think John Travolta in Phenomenon... Oh yes!) the way the coffee grains land in the mug - it's to the left to the left. It used to be bang in the middle.

I need to start changing things, and this is one of them. I bottle things up and the lid is screwed on so tight not even Hulk Hogan could make a dent. I have issues from years ago. But things are going to start changing around here, there's a new Sheriff in town, and even though there are small things that still make me smile and improve my day, I'm going to try and toughen up, no more Miss walkover, time to turn the tables. These boots are made for walking and I just bought a new pair.

I'm also going to search for my voice. I seem to have, from people mentioning it, a rather soft voice. I mutter a lot, mainly because it's rude and I'm just one faux pas a minute, but seriously this has got to change. SOLUTION: I'm going to start taking a megaphone with me every I go. Sorted.

That was quite a nice vent. I've been in a rather good mood today, this vent was like the Chronicles of Narnia compared to Lord of the Rings.

• The small thing that made me smile today: I found R3.05c in my pocket. How cool!? It may not sound like that to all, but seriously to the unemployed that's a blessing. I mean R3, that's 3 fizz pops yo!

Lekker soos a double decker. (my afrikaans is HOrrendous)

And remember a smile a day keeps the blues away.